~Moving Forward~

I'm looking backwards to see the future
how the once vibrant sky's gone dim
with ever step back a lost smiles found
how we used to laugh in the face of destiny
seeing the journey in reverse is it worth it

I'm moving forwards in a journey i didn't want
hollowing my soul to gain sight
without you I've lost my final purpose
how our minds and bodies would match so perfect
seeing the broken accomplishments left drifting

I'm standing still facing a mirror
holding a picture of the future and past
with my steps forwards and back i stand still
hoping that my action wont break this dam
seeing in my eyes a destiny unknown yet so cliche

~emotional vampire~

i hold a deadly secret
one that few could know
it ties me to my sins
tighter with every pass
the words i say fall flat
in my ears as i laugh

I call you when i cry
broken in need of repair
i long for attention
so its you i go to bleed
for hours we'll talk and laugh
but when i leave your dry

i hold tightly to this secret
a life outside my own
that I've made fade away
left you broken and alone
for just one night of smiles
kisses hugs and your love

i wish i would not call you
that i could shed this sin
but you let me in every time
and i bleed you dry
without you I'd be broken
yet with you I've only passed it on

~Breaking it down~

Another break down another day
Tears healing as they cut down my face
Scars of my pain are noticeable if you see me
They run deep in parts and shallow in others
Like the bottom of a lake I hold unknown depths
These tears represent an anguish unseen
A solid core of steel is permeable to your touch
Another break down another day
Falling down a path long not wanted
If you closely you can see me bleed in front of you
Bottling up every break down till tomorrow
Holding in the burning liquid tears
You wont see me dying because I'm already dead

~Old Promises~

You've held me while i cried and now you just look away
say all those days mean nothing but everlasting pain
with every fiber of my being i want to take back what i said
I'm falling down on my knees crying to the rain
sweet kisses shared long ago held suspended in my mind
promises of happiness and no more tears down face
how you used to hold me and make the pain go away
You used to hold me while i cried but now you look away
wont even tell me that my dream have died and gone away
every mistake i ever knew was just so simple to put on you
i never really blamed you how could i lie to you
You ripped my heart out that very day
left me bleeding in a silent way
I'm sorry i told you i loved you so many ways cause you made me pay
just couldn't lie to you everyday
This love was lost in such a tragic way
You've held me while i cried the pain away
now i cry here empty wishing you away

Sunny Dreams

sunny skies hold s much promise
like the minds of children
river rush through us
pushing away the pains of life
forgotten are the smile once on my face
long gone is the river to take away the pain
my mind has lost its naivety
the sky's are grey and thunder rolls
raising arm to the storm i move forward
embracing pain and hurt like its lives blood
a smiling face hiding a crying soul
the promises of sunny days teasing
a shroud of dreams laid to protect
too far gone to be able to forget

~Unraveled~

i can not change who i am
my feelings are connected
i see you and want to cry
rain pours down my face
from the clouds overhead
consumed in their cycle
lost to lost to my own
unable to pull back
gone down the wrong path
too many wrongs to be right
i don't know how to change
every thing is so connected
you had to break that string
watching my web float away
one string unraveled me
one drop two drops three
stopping the counting
i can not pull back
left to an endless cycle of emotions