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The emptiness inside me consumes every thought
like a blackhole it sucks every ounce of sunlight away
I smile by forcing my eyes to read what I don't feel
missing a crucial part of my being twice over
Hatred bubbles from my chest at others joy
with everyone elses happiness
This blackness inside of me is suffocating
only one thought is left, sadness
Endlessly the tears pour down my cheeks
leaving trails that speak of my hurt
Nearly every part of me wants this back
bad enough to betray and hurt others
I'll overcome this somehow
i dont know how but i will
for the lost i will fight to remain afloat
of my endless tears

Losing it over nothing

In my own search for who i am
it it when i get lost that i feel the most like me
fumbling and blind to everything
yet seeing it all for the first time
so who am i if i am just lost wondering

feeling my way through out this being with my feet and heart
searching for an answer that I have
yet choose to think there is more too
how can i keep being without knowing who i am

from person to person my existence changes
falling from high to low and shinning to dull without a warning
my person is full of these contradictions
leaving my true self shielded behind all the unseen questions