~Enduring memories~

I've fallen into this ocean
overwhelmed by this something that is bigger than me
i promised i would never let you in
the reminder of how you sucked my soul dry
left me to rot in my own person hell on earth
how i long to forget every word and be held again
I've always broken the promises i intended to keep
worn down by our enduring memories and touches
imperfect in our beautifully chaotic ways
so lost on our paths we refuse to see the light
i promised with a scream that I'd never fall
another promise yet broken with my shattered heart
for I've fallen into an ocean
allowing it to consume me and wishing it to love me back

~*over my shoulder*~

I look back over my shoulder and see you there.
You stand there in the unknown.
 Surrounded by the mists of doubt.
I will always wonder at the answers you will give me.
 I am continuously left on the verge of feeling, feeling anything in this frozen world.
Would i pity your inability to make the final jump again, when i let you fall without me catching you the last time.
 left falling, we have finally come to a frozen limbo where doubt is friend and foe.