~strides of living~

~strides of living~
In the meadows of life I walk
unknowing of my true course
passing through tall grasses
treading my own path
crossing others and walk a short way
we part unsuspecting of what lays ahead

In these meadows of life were I do not fit
I walk a lonely path
not sure where it leads me and to whom
but I walk none the smarter everyday
coming to points where there is no way forward
finding ways to get through
looking for the unknown beauty ahead of me

Within the meadows of life everyone is unique
we stand alone on our paths or we choose to follow
we are never stronger or weak for our choices, just ourselves
pushing through the grasses we tread paths later to be followed
forming a unique mark to be inspiration in the future as those from the past
moving till we find the end and fall way from the tall grasses and aloneness

hmmm ... odd poem... I don’t know if it makes sense... I’ve definitely have been thinking bout life... I mean where am I headed? not just goal wise but emotionally an all that shiza... I have to learn to tae are of myself but I cant seem to find a way to be in control of everything lately... and once I’m gone from one part of life I let everything fall apart >_< ... not to mention that my mind is always muddled and in knots... well nothing is interesting in my life... this the mundane nature of it though, life that is... the non-stop, always occurring life.
<3 all

to be or not to be...

in reality my life doesn’t suck as much as it could.. I know this... but I tend to forget these facts allot... lately all I do is wonder y I have been getting the wrong end of the stick.. thing is, I really haven’t gotten the wrong end as much as I could.. I should just go on and live.. carpe diem.. but I cant... ill never be about to...

now my really issue tonight.... same thing as normal.. do I sit waiting for what I know I want and know wants me... or do I truly, for the first time in m life put myself out there? I know me.. and I have already and continually chosen to wait... to be or not to be.. that’s what Shakespeare said.. well I don’t want to be.. I want to melt away into the world and just be forgotten... lol me and my angst.. well I’m of to read some more hp fan fiction to make myself stop thinking ^_^