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I asked God the other day why he didnt want me to love again... i think i know his answer now... i can love again cuz i still love... or maybe he feels i need to let go of that old love still.... i dont know... either im so terrified to love him again that i wont admit that i might (though i am here) or im just reaching out for love where i can get it and this is just him playing with my emotions and trying to get what he wants...
For someone that i cant love though hes everything that i cold ever really ask for... but so is my other guy.. goodness i hate this! He had to go and bring up all those old emotions didnt gah im sleeing now

~searing kiss~

You seared my lips shut
buring through them to my soul once again

Do i love you ill i dont know
if this fog clears thne i might see

Hands on my cheeks
a gaze that makes me feel were all alone

Am i so afraid to love you
my hearts all mended, will you tear it up again

eyes slipping close, allowing it
searing my lips closed leaving a burn to my soul

Burning so deep you rip open scars
so long ago i loved you fully, can i again?

~ The End~

Your beauty is not skin deep
Passion lays waiting on the tip of your tonge
Suprises fall from you like the chaos of the stars
Why do you leaving waiting so?

In your heart can you see me?
Waiting with the pateins of an angle, eternily
Longing to feel your passion engulf me fully
biding the time till you find me speechless
Why do i love you so?

Your heart tells you truths of old
Pushing at an existance of spontanatity and fidelity
Surpassing all odds yet working for the same one, love
Why can you not love me like so long ago?

In that deep sublime soul can you still feel me?
Wanting your touch even if only a ghost of a hand on my arm
Loving you without question and standing by your side unnoticed
brideling my emotions slowly masking my face to the world of hurt im enduring
Why dont you want me anymore?

Your slowly fading from my life killing me exquiestly
passing away life a grain of sand consumed by the ocean waves
Sucking dry my frail and tattered soul
Why can you not see my hurt?

In the days that pass ive given up on living
Willing my existance to cease and stay frozen in time
Living in this world hurts so much, but i will endure
bridging my lifeforce with a touch of unstability and loneliness
Why can i not forgive you and love you again?
For now till forever this is the end